A shoujo Anna by Loorae
Artist’s comments: This piece is very personal to me.
When I started it two months ago, I was in the process of wrapping up a very painful period. I felt that after being blocked due to all the emotion, then was the right time to put those feelings into a piece. I had seen Frozen a few days before, and recognized a lot of Anna’s feelings of loss after Elsa cast her off. What do you do when your sister and best friend suddenly slams the door in your face and leaves your life? It’s like they die in a way, or at least, that’s what I experienced when that happened to me. Yet despite the feeling someone died, strangely enough, there’s no place to go to, to mourn properly. Instead, you’re left with the remnants and the memories, with the anger and the emptiness and all the pain. With the confusion of someone being irrevocably gone, but still posting facebook messages– Okay, the last one might not be exactly applicable to Frozen. But that was my situation, and my loss. It was the worst time of my life. So when I saw Anna and Elsa’s relationship, it… well. It hit something. So I thought for a while what the most recognizable element was I could visualize – and this is it. This horrible feeling of loss without actual loss. Feeling someone’s presence die inside of you without them really being gone. This question of how to mourn someone who isn’t dead. That was the hardest. I’m happy Disney addressed that pain. Thinking about it and drawing it out over these two months as I’ve come to full recovery has been very therapeutic. I went back to my manga roots for it, which has been very nice. I’m planning a new comic actually! More on that soon.
I’m okay now. I just wonder if you can love someone again if they come back against all odds. If you should at all. I wish the movie could have addressed that a little bit more, shown us a little bit more about their dynamic after such alienation. I’m still not sure myself.